21September

Torn

2011-09-24T10:37:00.002+08:00

I've heard that you settled down
That you found a girl , and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave things I didn't give to you.

I had hope you see my face you'd see my face that you'll be reminded
That for me
It isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you .
I wish nothing but the best of you too.
Don't forget me I beg.
'I'll remember' you said .
Sometimes in love it last but sometimes it hurts instead .

Regret and mistakes.
Memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste.

Nevermind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me I beg.
'i'll remember' you said.
Sometimes it last in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

Someone like you - Adele.

this is my sweet 16

2011-09-23T19:59:00.009+08:00

" I suspected something when my mum asked me to bathe @ 2pm , twice . Took a nap . I think it's god's will to make me laze in my bed till 3plus because my clique came to surprise me while i was sleeping !!! They thought i was swimming in my dream because i kept kicking my leg against the pillows. Yup, my mum was in this too & she ordered pizza for us after we had our yummy chocolate cake that was bought by my lovely friends (: This was Valerie's 1st birthday Surprise on Monday (: & i received this super cool presen

t which i'm truly moved by it . There were many many many many extremely a lot of letters written by my close friends. the coolest thing is that my primary school's letter was even inside. Thank you thank you (: & here's my reply to one of my classmate : I will lose some newtons ! " wednesday was another awesome day celebrated with my classmates.

(thanks for dressing me like this)

Thank you to alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll those people who contributed to my sweet sixteen. Even though this year's celebration isn't the best celebration & i wasn't as happy as before however , i saw the efforts that you guys put in which truly touched me (: thank you for the efforts , (: ♥

i had three cakes this year (clique (Jolina Ruiyi Shihying Sandra Wanxuan Jingyu) classmates ( aaron cherng hann keith tzexin glen huzaifah & my family ) & i made three of the same wishes , i hope they come true (:

2011-09-05T21:02:00.000+08:00

If you ever see this , do visit our blog (:

2011-08-26T22:27:00.002+08:00

I KINDA MISS YOU.

2011-08-09T08:32:00.005+08:00

"Time to take step and look at the big picture, learn to be appreciative"

Let me tell you a story about a boy, His name is "Peter".

He was so happy with his friends last night. He was so strong whenever he is with his friends. However, he woke up from bed this morning feeling poignant again. He had a dream , he dreamt that he was back with his girlfriend again. Ironically, in this dream, he feels like pushing her away.

He woke up.

'No, that isn't what I want. I want to be with her again' he thought to himself.

He cried , asking himself how is someone able to move on so easily and to forget a year of memories and love because it isn't one month of love but , a year , more than a year.

He questioned himself, he asked himself "This really doubt something." A month has passed, however he is still living in the past. Living in the past with those sweet memories , hoping for time to return , hoping for everything to return back. But no, he thought "Why hope when she doesn't care. Why cry when she is so happy with her friends. Why care when she doesn't know you're here. Why feel poignant everyday when she isn't upset at all. Why live in the past when she has already moved on. Why still feel loved when she has already found something more important. "

"Be strong" , he said yet in the next minute, he crumbled back into the bed .Thinking and hoping to be embrace again. He cried but he mumbled ,

I know i WILL be strong one day.

2011-07-29T19:56:00.002+08:00

"It's okay if you fall, you just have to stand up" .

Indeed , it's easy to stand up if you really fall , physically.

But what if you encounter something that hurt you so so bad and you're unable to move on, you feel like you're stuck at the same point with all the knives stab in your heart. The pain just keep going and the tears keep flowing. When you lift your head up, you realise he moved on, everyone moved on. Time waits for no man and you're just stuck at the same point alone. You feel so alone. Even though your friends cheer you up and talk some sense to you you just couldn't be awake, you just fall back into the pit of needles and hurt yourself once more. You just keep crying and crying but you wouldn't want to tell anybody that you hid in the toilet and cry everyday and every time you bathe and you even cried in the middle of examinations because it seemed like you're trying to dig out their sympathy. There's no one you can confide in because the person you once trust the most, the person you once loved the most, the person you once relied on has just left you. So you can only count on yourself . You thought about the past , wanting so badly to embrace him again, to turn back time, to be together with him. But no , "we're not meant for one another" that stabbed you in the heart once more. You didnt give up, you pin on every little hope you've got left trying to make him go back to you. But no , it's futile and useless and pointless. Rejected , Ignored : this was what you received. The love was so strong that you can't hate, you can't abhor. You still hold on .

But you realise something , he isn't the person you once know anymore. He has forgotten. He has moved on. He has found something more important than you in life. You cried and you cried and you kept on crying.

but guess what ? -Nobody gives a damn.

You lead a pathetic life.

2011-07-17T00:49:00.004+08:00

Remember when i cried to you a thousand times ,

and you said you'll never leave me alone again.

It never crossed my mind , that there would be a time ,

for us to say goodbye.

I remember when we once promised forever,

talking about some dreams about you and me

and how sweet we were back then.

I didn't expect , that there would be a time,

for the story of us to end.

& it's getting harder for me to pretend

that I'm fine being friends.

2011-07-14T21:58:00.003+08:00

"Are you mad at him?"

"i was supposed to but i don't know why i just can't" .

I shall use lyrics of songs that have been playing in my head to express most of my feelings.

on the first page of our story

the future seemed so bright

then this thing turned out so evil

don't know why I'm still surprised.

I've learnt to live half alive

baby i was naive

so many dreams about you and me

happy endings, now i know,

I'm not your princess

this ain't a fairy tale

I'm going to find someone someday who might actually treat me well

but i can't forget it at all

somewhere we went wrong

we were once so strong ,

our love is like a song.

you can't forget it.

don't forget.

People change, feelings fade.

Memories remain and i will stay.

Will you return ? I will wait.

2011-07-09T20:47:00.002+08:00

whom can i talk to ? who is able to give me solutions, encouragements and most importantly , the courage during this toughest moment.

2011-07-05T21:40:00.003+08:00

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation ?

You build up hope but failure's all you've known.

2011-07-04T09:19:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was almost a perfect day.

Woke up late as i got back to sleep when the alarm rang, thankfully , i've already prepared a SECOND alarm. Trained to city hall. Sea of red ; there were manyyyyyyyyy x1000000 people. When we were flagged off, we were unable to run because there were really many people but we managed to run and squeeze to the front (: 5k from suntec towards nicholl highway > flyers > mbs > ..........the scenery was just beautiful ,if it wasn't the morning sun, our run would be much better (: Went to scape orchad after that to get our nb stuffs and headed for lunch and home.

Love songs make promises that isn't realistic at all but why is it that I still listen to them , feeling happy, thinking it would happen on me. let's laugh. -.-

2011-07-02T11:13:00.001+08:00

Life. Money.

Does money really make the world go round? Yes, Money IS important to meet our basic necessities but what really makes a happy life? This is a complicating issue which has many arguments. but right now , to me , a happy life is to have a family who will support and understand you , friends who are true to you and perhaps a boyfriend who loves you wholeheartedly ? (:

Hence, it is really irritating to be told to study and revise almost everyday. Like what Miss Huang says , "Play, i need to play right?"

Yes, I'm going to play okay. I'M GOING TO GO OUT. I am not an indoor kind of girl who is able to face my books and study the whole day. I am not so i NEED to go out.

However, i know all these naggings are actually harmless.

what am i talking about ? -.- ohmygod. this is crap. Bye.

Hello everyone , lets be happy

2011-07-01T22:16:00.002+08:00

To a friend of mine :

Don't you think it's kind of tiring telling me things that you told me before? This shows how much this thing has been repeating and hurt you constantly. Don't you think it's kind of confusing and contradicting ? Don't you feel like a puppet? It feels like you're being taken advantage. However, please don't think that you're pathetic and people should pity you because you can choose not to feel this way. Like what Mr Azhar has said, "when you wake up, you have two choices , to be in a good mood or bad mood.." So, don't let it affect you okay my dear friend. I know its definitely not easy but do stuffs that will keep you from thinking & No matter what, your friends will always be here for you. Just like some people, who never feel sick and tired of their friends and have a whale of their time talking to them but to others , just a completely black face -.- & To those people , well done (: Therefore, 亲爱的朋友,不要再感到伤心难过了,要笑口常开(:

First week of school was great! Sorry , my vocabulary is limited and I'm currently trying to improve on them so bear with my shallow words(:

& so , school was just fun. I love my class i love my class i love my class i love my class i love my class . I actually feel quite distant away from my class and my group of friends but recently, certain stuffs made me turn towards them and i feel better (: Hopefully , I will be able to achieve my goals of the month , GO VAL ! Trying hard~

I am feeling very "rusty" with my emaths right now , i had so much difficulties doing my emaths worksheet. I'm going to die )': & physics ? I'm so afraid of physics and I'm scared to touch him*. (physics is a guy) I NEED TO OVERCOME PHYSICS AND ENGLISH AND LITERATURE AND EMATHS AND SS/GEOG.

OHYES, 3RD JULY IS GOING TO BE EXCITINGGGGG. great eastern run > breakfast > shop for sports attire. It's been a longgggggggg time since i go out MOREOVER ON A SUNDAY(: In addition , 3rd is a special day ♥

A blink of an eye

2011-06-24T23:28:00.004+08:00

(taken @ tanjong pagar )

一转眼, school's in 3 more days ? I am totally not excited for school , tough journey ahead . I can picture this : long hours of school + remedial + extra classes . And prelim's is in less than a month's time. Who's prepared ?

So basically , my holidays...were extremely unplanned. I haven't done much revision. Yeah, who actually believes this because 30days of holiday yet ..no revision done ? Sadly, this is true. Don't ask me how my holidays are actually spent because I have no idea too.

First week : school Second week : tuition + 1 hour of lunch + what the hell , i don't know Third week : tuition + school homework Fourth week : tuition + one pathetic free day + ..... If only we're allowed to have another month of holiday (: -.- ya , continue to dream on huh.

Have not been planning about my schedule for revision, i had been day-dreaming about my future since just now : Exploring around countries and places like Venice/Maldives and suddenly I had the urge of getting married (hello? this is every girl's dream) By the way, two of my cousins are getting married in the month of my o'levels , kinda excited for the wedding though (: (:

BACK TO THE PRESENT , no holidays in July = how to go out ? = ):

Start of school ; start of a new term ; start of July :

Dear valerie , remember what you have promised yourself . Do not be reckless and have self-control over your emotions. Don't be so irritating at times -.- Be a mature & better person (: Have an open-heart with an open-mind. Most importantly , start revision okay? HAHAHAHAH, really hope it will improve us (:

Awaiting for the next outing with leejianwei &&&&&& not to forget my girlssssssssssssssssfriend

SUDDENLY I FEEL SO HAPPY. I LOVE YOU !!!!!!

2011-06-10T21:08:00.003+08:00

I'M TRYING ): useless shit.

do you actually think i'm like this ?

16th

2011-05-15T21:56:00.005+08:00

♥15may2011.

"he's special , he mean so much to me. Happy birthday leejianwei"

2011-05-04T16:41:00.004+08:00

3rd is where all it began and yet ironically, it is also the end of everything.

Did i brought this to myself ? I don't know.

There are just too many things happening at the same time. Exams, separation, both parents travelling overseas and i have to go to school myself , have lunch and dinner all alone next week. What life is this ?

I feel pathetic and alone and this feeling sucks and its killing me inside ):

Give me some medication to cure all this or perhaps some pill that allow me to forget everything and numb this pain.

I have to move on.

The start of April

2011-04-02T10:12:00.001+08:00

is the ending of the love story of 1year 4week and 1 days.

Last night was a tough night for me , fighting against my tears and thoughts. I started praying and it's weird how i called out my grandfather's name asking him to protect me and overcome everything and it began to rain. So , i accompanied the sky and we cried together. How am i going to survive with nights like this?

A friend of told me "When there's a start there's an end. You should always be ready for the end since you've started.." I got the meaning behind it , words of motivation to move on. However, I beg to differ?

I was convinced by the word "forever".

oh wait.

Let's say "byebye" to the sleepless nights because somehow I sense a happy ending ♥

forever and always

2011-03-25T21:43:00.002+08:00

the battle's in your hand now ,

& i would lay my amour down,

if you say you rather love than fight.

2011-03-19T23:53:00.001+08:00

"How much do i really mean to you", I've been questioning myself the whole day. I've been only hearing echos of my own voice. I dread for moment like this.

2011-03-18T20:59:00.002+08:00

PROCRASTINATING.I'M ALWAYS FEELING LAZY and reluctant.

2011-03-16T22:22:00.001+08:00

Nobody has the rights but who cares.
BITCH.

2011-03-13T22:42:00.003+08:00

adam khoo's workshop/course was superb!
It didn't really had much impact on me but I've learnt many things. Efficient ways to study , time management , positive thinking..& many other stuffs. Furthermore , I've strengthen my bond with my class girls which made me felt happy (: Because I've never been close to my class girls before .
Dragon boating was (Y)funfunfunfun. Yes, & I'm signing up for the kayaking course ! Currently making enquiry, hoping that it will fulfil my requirement.

March holidays are here however, I still have to go back to school.
March holiday shall be a fruitful week.

changes

2011-03-08T22:07:00.003+08:00

boring camp starts tomorrow, no , camp is a wrong word to use because we're not required to sleepover , so .... it's like normal school day but , LONGER -.- Only looking forward for the dragon boating (:
W-E-I-R-D-B-O-R-E-D-W-E-I-R-D-B-O-R-E-D-I-N-E-E-D-M-O-T-I-V-A-T-I-O-N-.
i hate being stress even though i have plenty of time to do my work yet I'm still slacking.

& i thought you were the only exception .

2011-03-05T22:38:00.001+08:00

I WAS TOP7 FOR CROSS COUNTRY .

You and me walking down the aisle?

threesixfive

2011-03-03T22:07:00.005+08:00

confusion. praying for a better day , looking forward to a brighter day.

HAPPY 365♥ SKYRIDEEXTREMELOGRIDEMEGAZIPILOVEYOU.

2011-02-23T22:41:00.002+08:00

hello, life doesn't rock . i know i'm going to do badly for all my common test because i can feel it , i feel that i suck too.

2011-02-18T22:25:00.002+08:00

It's scary how time flies in sec4 life. I remembered going for Taylor Swift's concert last week , i showed a totally different side of me , jumping up and down screaming my lungs out for her . The best thing was : I GOT TO TOUCH TAYLOR SWIFT AND WAS 1CM AWAY FROM HER. Her concert was awesome ,exlcuding those pushings and so on, $178 was just worth . So much x1000000000000 better than kelly clarkson's concert (oops, no offence to kelly's fans) . And how i had my SPA exam which i guessed i screwed it -.- noooooooooooooooooooo )': My results are dropping ): everything's 14. I got 14/25 for summary , 14/25 for emaths test , 14 for amaths trigo. EVERYTHING'S 14! what happen to my A's ):

okay anyway , i hope next week will be a fresh new week (: I hope i can get like..at least an 'A' for my maths common test ? Next week will definitely be a better week , its the end of common test andddddd , CIP on saturday. hehehehe. IM SO EXCITED FOR MANY THINGS WHEN I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO BE ! BUT WHATEVER. WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO.
BABY , DO YOU KNOW WHAT I'M EXCITED FORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ?

i shall be a happy kid & enjoy life :D

i want to be a teacher when i grow up , i will buy many dresses and wear a different one each day like Miss Lim, i will build good rapport with my students like Miss Huang , Mrs Ang. hehehehehehehhehehehe.

HELLO EVERYONE , I'M MISS KHOO( :

2011-01-29T09:52:00.004+08:00

Hi. I live in a family filled with laughter and I have the bestest friend on earth. No, he's more than a friend and i know he will be there for me all the time. He always made my day. I have good good good friends and classmates whom I know i can count on , be trusted and i believe there's no other reasons why should i feel upset with my life. Yes, I should feel contented with what i have. I love my family. Life's manageable ! Everything has been smooth-going these days. And i hope this maintain (:

*this : there are still plentiful of homework given test and each week without fail, there will be test. However, I've gotten used to Sec4 life (:

If only..

2011-01-15T13:39:00.004+08:00

Hi. School life being a secondary 4 , is kind of busy, or perhaps stress? Like Mrs Ang , she's so stressed up in class because she's afraid that she couldn't complete the syllabus. Hence, she's rushing like everything !!!

Almost every classmate of mine is setting their time table, they even planned for September holiday. Like ha-ha-ha-ha,oh-my-gosh. Am i affected? Hmm , perhaps yes. But my laziness is killing me. tests + troubles + dy over dx + homeworks + physics + stress + stress and + stress again = school life. So..I guess I'm stress? I like being a sec4 though , I'm excited to get my o'levels results even though i haven take the paper but that's because I know I'm going to do well, right val ?

Life can be so perfect actually.

However, I got to admit that life kind of suck at times.

Like today . Netball was fun . Or perhaps I was trying to act crazy act hyper to kill those thoughts around me. & I found out i got into school team , LIKE YAY RIGHT. I'M suppose to be FREAKING HAPPY. OTHER NETBALLERS ARE EQUALLY HAPPY FOR ME TOO.

But like what i said , Life don't really rock. I won't say it suck because at least 2/3 of it , I had been smiling, having fun, hahahaha-ing. But .... but things just come at the wrong time. Or perhaps to make me feel better, that's why someone , I don't know who , God ? Fate ? arranged things like this. One good one bad, coming to you at the same time and you don't know if you should feel happy or sad. I don't know if what I'm talking about is making sense.
The thing is , I'm sad confused frustrated happy angry in a lost depressed . I know my vocabulary sucks as I'm expressing my feelings with simple words. But that's how i feel , really. The battery's running out just like the tolerance in me. I don't know if I'm in a position to feel this way because I guess I'm the cause of it. However, sometimes i do pity myself. Suffering all these, do i really deserved it ? Yet, my patience persevered me on. I am not saying this because I feel that I'm wronged as I know I'm wrong.

Am i tired? But I am not giving up. I hope for a happy ending . I hope no matter what, I will still be happy.

Val , I know you're a strong girl , right ? ):

2011-01-04T20:08:00.002+08:00

First day of school . Same old routine, attire check class admin stuffs , timetable...It was kind of boring but something was different. Yup, I'm the class chairperson. I felt a little happy about it because it might help me get some points , enabling me to get into JC easier? I don't know. I don't really like the changes made. Schools hours are actually shorter for me , but everything's different. Chinese lessons are the same for only 4/7 and 4/8. Why 4/8 ?! It's not that I'm bias against them but......some should know why. Almost everything's with 4/8 . Not exactly everything , I'm just trying to exaggerate them actually. I don't know. I still prefer the old timetable even though fridays from now on seems so exciting because school starts @ 9 and i've got NO cca that day ,( \M/ ) thing's gonna be different , I can sense it. Will 2011 be a good year? Can i make it a good year? Hopefully , i hope i can.

Are they really protective of me? Or is it because they really feel injustice for me? Am i speaking the one-sided story because I'm not suppose to sound so sad or should i use the word pathetic ? Are they doing the wrong thing ? Or are they afraid for something to happen because of my character? Am i just finding an excuse ? Or am i just lack of perseverance and determination? Is lack of confidence one of the reason? One of my teacher told me this , "Don't just do what others want you to do, do it because you feel that that's what will make you happy . You have a choice, you can choose what you want. " But does this really apply in life? I doubt so , i really doubt so. In life, you can't make choices because that's what will make you happy. Contradicting , really.

2011-01-02T21:25:00.001+08:00

this sucks big time, but it's a new year, i've got to be happy.

s-h-i-t means shit.

2011-01-02T13:56:00.006+08:00

Can anyone tell me what's right and what's wrong ? I really do not know what to do & I'm feeling so so troubled. Ya, It's trivial matters & indeed , I'm making a big fuss of it because since sec2, I've been having hesitations. Why am i going? Why am i not? What's pulling me back? What am i afraid of? I have the support of my family members and some from my friends. So what am i afraid of ? -My future. Yup, that struck me. I was told that it could at least help me when I get into JC. Yes, I'm heading towards JC. If I'm looking into the direction towards poly, I would have already slack throughout the year. So yes, reminder to myself, why am i holding back again? Play me a song from the track list to make myself feel better, seriously. I am feeling so freaking troubled. & let me remind myself once again , Why am i feeling this way? I feel like giving up everything, okay, not exactly everything but yes, that stupid annoying thing that always made me had to ask myself Why am i doing this, why am i feeling this way. What on earth am i feeling afraid of ?

Hi friends, if you happen to read this, I apologise for not replying your messages. I know its real irresponsible of me because we're in the mid of planning something. I will get back to you at night, if i remembered and i hope i do. I need a hug right now , words of encouragement , motivation. I'm so...sick? of this piece of shit. Adding onto the frustration of not completing myself and I'm left with zero days because tomorrow isn't a day to do my homework, I'm feeling like.......crapshit.

So , to remind myself again , What on earth am i feeling afraid of & why?

2011-01-01T22:21:00.002+08:00

Hello. I don't know how to start because I've got so many things to do right now. Upload yesterday's countdown pictures , my aunty's birthday's pictures..& most importantly , my holiday assignment (maths + physics + lit ) still undoneeeeee )': Ohgosh ohgosh.

I've got confessions to make.

There were soooo many extremely redundant stuffs that made me felt so freaking frustrated in 2010. double you t f , shihying just told me something that made me feel more double you t f , seriously -.-

OKAY. I WILL POST LATER. IM FEELING DAMN DOUBLE YOU T F NOW.

crap. I FCKING HATE THIS. WHAT A 2011 "HAPPY" NEWS. HAHAHAHAHAHA-.-

i was echanted to meet you

2010-12-23T22:52:00.004+08:00

Hello. I've been dead for 23-7=16days . I don't know if anyone miss me here or have been refreshing this page for new posts , even though i guess there wouldn't be any , but there's still this silent reader i know who has been updating him/herself because he/she kept asking why didn't i post. So , hello silent reader ! This post shall be for you :D Specially for you , for being such a passive reader. Is this word usable ? Hmm, whatever.

Hello,I didn't miss you during Thailand trip because i was busy shopping but i thought of you many times because i kept wanting to get you things and everything seems to remind me of you ? Yup. Time flies , and yup , it has been more than 2weeks since Im Back. I kinda miss Thailand.

However , i think i miss going to univeral studios more. The first time we went , we didnt really make the money worth huh. Time spent on queueing and queueing and..what? RIDE CLOSED WHEN ITS OUR TURN , EXACTLY OUR TURN FOR MAINTENANCE. and guess whats next? When we came out , the ride's open again huh. HAHAHAHA. You and your stupid foul mouth , you cursed the ride to break down , remember ? It was a great day spent though there were certain parts where i felt pissed off , i guess you didn't know huh , of course. Because you wouldn't know (: Overall , still an awesome day la , hehehe ♥ It was a brave day , I'm worth to be called "brave girl" , for that day . You should know why ^^ dog / dinner. I'm indeed a brave girl , (:

Silent reader , I'm posting with red cheeks now because of the sunburnt + cut on my toe i got just now. But i love looking like this though , because its cute (: 11-6 , 7hours , contacting with water. Im surprised my fingers wasn't as wrinkled as what i thought it would be. Today , is another brave day actually. Because 我鼓起勇气 sit that slide with you . Do you know i was freaking scared? That slide is scarier than MUMMY x3 okay! But whatever, at least im able to tell everyone " I FINALLY COMPLETE ALL RIDES HAHAHAHAHAHA" Yup.

2hours after i came home , i felt so tired. 2reaons , tired after a long day , tired of things thats happening. You didn't confirm if you can go out and there's this strong feeling that you couldn't. Next, next whole week . HAHAHAHA, -.- Like what it always happen , cca. Discipline....i should inculcate some of that into me because Im so so super lack-of-that. However its different for you. That kinda make me pissed. I should feel happy actually , for you. But no , i couldn't. The thought of it just make me ...-.- Yeah , pissed. Sometimes i just feel so.......................un-great ( yeah , i know there isn't such word but whatever , the opposite of great , thats what Im trying to mean) .

I know i shouldn't end my post like that because it sounds sad..I should say something happy. So........
CHRISTMAS'S COMING . BUT HAHAHA , I DONT REALLY CELEBRATE XMAS. just that , i will receive my only present from my softtoy and another from this exchanging thing thing that my friends organise.
AND HAHAHAHA, ANOTHER HAPPY THING : SCHOOL'S STARTING. OMG , I HAVEN MY HOMEWORK . -.-

Ok , this-really-going-to-sound-happy .
THERE'S NO SCHOOL ON 3RDJAN.
OMG, SILENT READER, DO YOU FEEL HAPPY ? YOU BETTER DO ♥
i think almost everyone should be able to guess who's this silent reader. yup , he's my boyfriend. and yes , he belongs to peanuts doing stunts.& I dont really like it even though thats how .....he caught my eye......but whatever cause i still ... ♥ him.

2010-12-07T22:54:00.003+08:00

we both look stupid here (Y)♥

I shall announce today a happy day :D So yup, jianwei's back yesterday. He bought me many things , i love kiwi but honeybear more. Hehehe, was superrrrrrrrrr happy okay!!! Hmm, during those 8days, time flies so slowly and i felt like it was a torture. But ...thinking about it now , it seemed so fast because....I'M GOING TO THAILAND TOMORROW ?! Yeah , super fast huh . He came back & its my turn to leave him alone here, HA-HA-HA. Come on , don't be sad, you know i still....hehehehe(to be continued)
But it doesn't feel like I'm going tomorrow, hehe. Spent almost the whole day with him today .
Went to NEX & celebrated my cousin's birthday > grandma house > Rapunzel Movie. Hohoho , Rapunzel movie was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeee. I totally love that movie ♥♥♥ , nice movie to catch :D

iloveyou,♥

2010-12-06T18:08:00.001+08:00

I guess I'm one of the most irritating person on earth huh , ya.
Hi-five! Cause i totally agree with myself -.-

Tomorrowwww\m/

2010-12-05T22:02:00.003+08:00

hello. this is honeybear.

Okay. I think i should sleep soon right?

Sleep > alarm ring > wake up > woooohoooo > wait awhile > yayyyyyyyyy > phone call > hello! omg, hi! > aaahhhh > excited !!! > text text text > ignores closing eyes , sleepy brain > 3hours later > hi b > smile > eye contact > huggies pull up pants > catch up > talk for 3hours > ....

ya. i miss him soooooooo damnnnnnnn much ):
i really should sleep , time will fly real fast like this, but i'm too excited to sleep.
hehehehehehehe.

Hello

2010-12-03T09:01:00.003+08:00

Dear monkey ,
happy 9th.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha -.- crapshitballs. i hate this.

but hey , i know i can . Family breakfast @ ikea later, (Y) at least there's something that is keeping me going!

Hello. I am back from 3rd december. New tuition tomorrow , kinda excited for it cause it's at marine parade which is near east coast and i want to go east coast park soon because i want to skateeeeeeeeeeeeee and i want iphoneeeeeeeeeeeeFOUR. Daddy said to get it by december , hopefully (:

homework still not untouched, day 5.

" i wish i wish with alllllllllllllllllll my ♥ that daddy will get me an iphone (: 4 "

2010-12-02T09:09:00.002+08:00

Dear december ,
it's only the fourth day. To be optimistic , yay! it's the half of the trip already ! To be pessimistic , the past four days were horrible , another f..o..u..r more days ?!
I don't know but it is just so difficult to struggle through , am i crazy ? I guess i am . okay.

2010-11-30T23:20:00.002+08:00

Hello. Back from chalet.
Weird, everything's just weird.
Yup, I'm disgusted..again.

Supposed to complete maths homework today , but well done, didn't touch any of my homework. Another busy long day tomorrow. I'm kinda tired for many things...Perhaps its because it's at night. It is usually the nights that are more difficult to overcome.

night2,crappy.

2010-11-29T21:00:00.002+08:00

Harry Potter movie in the morning > his house till 5.30 > changi airport > had dinner > loveyou , take care > home sweet home.

yup , take care my dearest bear (:
iloveyou.
awaiting for 6'Dec !

2010-11-29T08:22:00.005+08:00

Hello(: It's 8.22am in the morning. Went out to buy Macs breakfast with my parents for my sister. Yup , whole family's awake for her breakfast!! Yup, so mo mo ren is going to newzealand tonight. Hence, spending almost the whole day with mo mo ren later. well , i will take these 8days to chiong ALL my homework , hopefully. Because....I WANT TO ENJOY MY DECEMBER HOLIDAYS thailand universal studios ....many many more but currently , i'm S.O.C ( short of cash ) .

Chalet for 3days but i'm going for a day. $15 for it ? Ohgosh, it's alot..logically.....): But at the same time , i don't want to be a party-pooper righttttttttttttttt ): Just can't wait for him to come back , for me to go to thailand. Cause everything is just disgusting.
DEAR BEAR,
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF (:
WITH LOVES ,
YOURMONKEY♥

two more days ):

2010-11-27T22:41:00.006+08:00

he's currently packing his luggage for his newzealand trip thats why he is not replying my messages. But i was already informed , so hey ! Come on val , smile (: He's going to call you soon , i know (: Seems like he is going to have soooooooo muchhhhhhhhhh funnnnnnnnn withoutttttttt meeeeeeeeeeeeeee. But well, it's going to be MY TURN when he comes back from his trip. So yay ! Reciprocal way (: Good(Y) . But hai....)': Those 8days....ohgosh, i hope i will be fine even though i know its hard but hey! I will definitely be....ok? (:

Celebrated jingyu's birthday just now. Though something happened before the celebration , eveything was over after that. Hope you like the cake decorated by me and jianwei sponsered by your 6 lovelies + corine (: & The cup + small card from me (: As well as the dinner planned by wanxuan @ ikea (:

Im so going to go back there i eat my icecream + chicken wing + meatballs + pastaaaaaaaaa (: Yumyum , the fat pig's hungry.!

WOOHOOO. I RECEIVED A TEXT FROM #%@.....(:
but ... nah , not yet packed.
I'll wait!
I'll...miss....y..o....yeah, you.

2010-11-24T22:44:00.003+08:00

zzzzzzzzzooooooooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm bbbbbbbboooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
there's training again tomorrow.

hope.
going to be.
for.
a.
lifetime.
♥.

2010-11-23T23:15:00.000+08:00

20November, Babybear brought me to henderson waves , lovelovelove♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Peanut is in camp right now , hope he's doing fine (: After netball training @ 6 , hope to receive his textttttt ! Yay! (:
E-X-C-I-T-E-D!

Because I'm so confused

2010-11-19T22:59:00.002+08:00

May i know what is the right way to express myself and at the same time , nothing goes wrong but instead, thing will get better ?

Paused.

2010-11-19T12:07:00.002+08:00

Class chalet was successful in a way because it didn't rain ! Sooooo , we were able to bbq our food (: But many did not turn up , so failure in a way and we didn't take a group picture. So yup , we bbq-ed , talked about our future (jc / poly) , cards game, truth or dare.....I got to admit it was kinda abit boring as compared to last year's class chalet but , I had fun? I don't know..opps. LOL. Lazy to upload the pictures...

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To go or not to go.

How's life?

2010-11-17T22:53:00.009+08:00

Er.....hi.
(Hi luckyboy, why are you using utensils to eat ? :D )

Life's great with b , family and friends whom I knew that can be trusted. But I felt that something is missing by many stuffs that has been accumulating inside me. I'm feeling pretty mixed + ironic ..... yup, I just can't bring myself to be so.....fake. Is it me or my surroundings that made me become like this?

Ate bread for dinner (: Supposed to eat astons but idk what tempted bblee to eat pizza. So yup, we had pizza for dinner (: This week has been pretty busy , idk why , but it seemed busy . Especially tomorrow , there's tuition + netball training + class chalet. Well well well , @ least i manage to meet up with bblee this week because next week is going to be another busy week for him despite the fact that he's flyinggggg offff sooonnnnn )': Nevermind , i got to grow up and be mature, right val ? (: Yes val !

Not to forget some of my clique people ,we're meeting on Monday , i guess....Hopefully shihying already informed them.

Actually, life's not that great but i got to be contented for what i have , right ? (:

& you know you always never failed to make me annoyed then laugh then make me feel like a mad woman who has problems with my emotions because one moment i feel angry next , happy . I just can't express my ♥ for pqrstuvwxyz. Keep you for life k , ♥

2010-11-16T11:33:00.004+08:00

I'm so bored @ home. Shihying can't go outttttttttttt )': I can't stay at home ah. I will keep eating non-stop ! Nope, no popcorns or ben and jerry icecream but this times its crackers that mummy bought that is coated with sugar and cookies and cream icecream , wah wah wah. I can't stop eating. Coach told us to train our stamina and yup, i trained my weight to increase -.- Ha ha ha ha ha -.-

I want to do my homework !!!!! But.......nope , i can't do it at home ah )': I want to go out!

BYTHEWAY, ITS CONFIRM THAT IM GOING TO THAILAND (: YAY ! Can't wait \m/ But its stupid that im going on the 8th when jianwei's coming back on the 6th. Hmmmm, nevermind , I'm still kinda .. happy ? (: Yay!

TWO BOX OF RAISINS

2010-11-15T13:51:00.006+08:00

Awkward memories , right xin ? (:

sunview raisins (: , i'll remember that ! & so , like what i, no , i guess its "we" , we all expected this to happen during the holidays but ohwell , i'm still happy with life (: Went to this place for voluntary work organised by tzexin today. I was kind of inspired to help , i don't know...but seeing those unfortunate children and teachers with caring hearts , I was kinda moved. Clique-y are all working , only left ruiyi who is busy with gg ALMOST EVERYDAY . Well at least there's shihying (: Might be going out to do our homework tomorrow , (: To whoever is reading this , I guess you must be feeling kind of motivated to do your holiday assignment as well , right ? ^^.

STUDY-HEART

2010-11-14T15:40:00.005+08:00

To ruiyi : we were suppose to take picture with them with their uniform !!!! )':
( see the only cute boy who is smiling to the camera ? yup, thats my prince charming lor )

Time fliesssssssssssss ! Two weeks of bridging programme's over. Over the past two weeks , i've been feeling excited for 13November to come , which was yesterday. BECAUSE IT'S BABY'S PDS PERFORMANCE !!!! (: Trained down to Novena for more than 40mins which is pretty...ARGHHHHH to watch a 3minutes performance and trained backkkkkkkkkkkkkk to pasir ris. Can you imagine that ? Yeah , I'm such a nice girlfriend (: The performance was great. It's just a pity that i didn't get to video it down , i was trying to take pictures of him ONLY but i failed to. Lol , (: Went to jw house & stayed there till 6plus going 7. I had fun though , playing y8.com games (: We're cute kids , i know ! Bused back to ws to meet huzaifah with jw for dinner @ kfc before going home. Right now , im waiting for the clock to strike 5 because I'm going tamp with mummy to shopshopshop (: & i'm currently kinda excited for MANY things (: Too many to list them all. Yup baby, i meant that first impression but whatever because I'm still going to ___ __ forever(:

2010-11-08T16:19:00.004+08:00

(nightwalkkkkkkkkkk)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY AWESOME MUMMY (:
We're going to flyers laterrrrr (: Its pretty sad that jianwei couldn't join us because of his pdsssssssssss ): BUT ITS OK , WE WILL GO THERE TOGETHER , SOON (:

2010-11-07T19:24:00.004+08:00

Day before today , went to celebrate my sister's boyfriend 21st . Hmmm , come on vivienne khoo , the video you made was awesome (:

I consider today a family day even though my sister went out with her boyfriend's family to celebrated his birthday. Watched tv together till 1plus and went to have our haircuttttttttttttttttttt. After cutting my bangzxzxzxzxz , walked to compass point with my daddy. Didn't really buy anything.....OHYAH , BOUGHT SUNFLOWER SEEDS . We did a prank on mummy. She hinted that she wants flowers for her birthday & so , we told her we bought sunflower SEEDS for her , she gave us that LOL face. Nextttt , went to hougang mall. Hehehehehe. I bought shorts and shoes which i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee a lot (: & a thumbdrive , yeahhh \m/ i finally got my personal 8GB thumbdrive (: Hmm , i kinda feel guilty for spending so much money today .So , for the time being , i will be a good girl and wouldn't pester / hint daddy for ipod ! (: ER DADDDDDDDDDDDD ! I....THINK I WANT AN IPOD.............OPPS.

2010-11-05T22:53:00.004+08:00

247 , My prince charming.

We thought it would rained and you go "Noooo , i don't like!" .

Like what i always wanted , walking by the beach with hands interlocked with one another's , from beach station all the way to tanjong beach , ahhah , that's pretty far huhhh. Yupyup , that explains your tiredness now b, soooo , sleep after reading this k ^^
Settled down @ a spot that suits your eye and you took out your self-made egg sandwich , hmm , i wondered if its done by you huh baby , but whatever , i still appreciate the thought of you making those sandwiches (: Ate 1 slice down and i was like " Ohnooooo , its + yolk , but i'll have to eat it , baby make one mah" , So yup , i ate a total of three slices because i was reallll hungry after catching fishes.
We took pictures of ourselves with the polariod camera that you brought + the films we bought. It was my first time using a polariod camera and i got superrrr excited taking the first picture and was superrr afraid of having camera shake , but it turned out no , no camera shake (: I love all the polariod pictures that we took (:
Listening to taylor swift's music continuously (because i am going to her concert so must..ya) as i hugged you tightly in my sleep. I like ^^ (: I feel warm in the inside , (:
@ 5.18 , we went to catch fishes , as planned. The currents were scaryyyyy and we started talking about swash and backwash , hmmm , we're cool geographers ya (: After a while , we came out and OHYESSS !!! BATHING TIME \M/ (:
Supposed to look for shihying & co , but went to Clark quay specially for yoshiyona , like "oh-kayyyy" & to see the "sticky" shop but we got nothing. Trained back to pasir ris and met shihying yujie & eugene.

Though today's outing was kinda unplanned because of my tuition that make us unable to go out in the morning and we forgot to buy drinks & snacks...I still had fun (: Thank you for everything as well as your promises. Yup , winkypinkypromise , ♥ Remember that promise , you betterrrrrrrr
iloveyou.

2010-11-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

I get it , i really got it . That you guys were always there whenever i had problems with mybear. Thank you lovelies (: I enjoy going out with you people because it really cheered me , totally (: Soon , i will really arrange an outing specially for the 7 of us , ♥ 真的啦!

2010-11-03T22:23:00.002+08:00

tokoyo driftttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt fullstop.

2010-10-27T20:02:00.002+08:00

I used to tell my friends "Look at the bright side of life la" , but i then realise...it is not so easy like what i thought it would be. Perhaps , its because i've been living on the bright side of my life all these while and thats why i thought it is easy to be happy. But now....i guess its no longer easy for me to like last time....

i will love you forever.

2010-10-25T19:41:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wish that my thinking can be a little more mature ....

2010-10-22T12:47:00.004+08:00

(random piccccccccccccccc with tanyingying)
Ate macs for lunch & you know what ? I got instant win (: Before that i was still telling mummy and sister about jianwei hoping to get instant win each time he open the thing thing , AND YUP! I GOT INSTANT WIN FIRST , HAHAHA LEEJIANWEI ! (: Instant win to singapore flyers & know whats the coolest thing ? The expiry date for it its 3MARCH2011 eh ! SUPER DUPER COOL OHKAY ! (: & i was inspired to dance when i watched the music video of "broken arrow" , pizie lott is soooooo pretty & cool (: i like her ^^

I'm getting fatter but whatever , i will exercise one day , yup , one fine day (:

2010-10-21T20:54:00.002+08:00

School was kinda slack today , in fact veryyyyyyyyy slack.
PE > free period ( watched "spirited away") > recess > free period ( check physics marks only) > chinese ( completed watching "spirited away") >free period again (watched "ratatouille")> lunch > free period AGAIN > geography + ss lesson , Yup , my slack day . No school tomorrow but not going out , got to help mummy with some chores.
I thought we said no more of these, uncontrollable

2010-10-20T19:41:00.001+08:00

For the first time , my nose bleeeeddddddddddddddd. & it's on the 20/10/2010.

2010-10-19T21:58:00.004+08:00

(ps : MY HAIR GREW LONGER :D )
Hi Val , here's a gentle reminder to you to START SAVING $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ !

2010-10-17T15:56:00.004+08:00

( maybank nightwalk ♥ )

Went to suntec for the malaysia fair yesterday, supposed to go Sabah , but ..... yah. Whats the point of going there when i'm the only who WILL enjoy there right? So yup, ByeSabah ):

I have a whole list of stuffs to dooooooooooooooooooooooo ( : I want to..... go to universal studios sentosa and play @ the beach picnic fly kite icecream chef ........ no no no , i don't want to list them all out .... Because..I'm kinda afraid for tomorrow's results , ohno )':

2010-10-16T23:53:00.002+08:00

Today's an awesome though things didnt go well in the morning and afternoon. Im glad that things were sorted out with jianwei and the best thing is that , i spend quarter of my time with my clique people too. Its been a long time since i hang out with them , right ? Its really sweet of you guys to be so worried for me , and to run out to bring me in to claire's chalet. The hugs i gave you guys , were sincere k . Hehehehehehehehehehehe. And its has been a long time since we took a clique picture. Hehehe, im currently waiting for linjiayi to send me the pics. Excited (: Great day spent today , ♥
Happy belated birthday claireclaire (: I hope you had fun and thanks for inviting me to your chalet (: I had fun !

2010-10-15T23:03:00.001+08:00

this is what no life people will do , blog 3 posts in one day and yup , i am that loser. I have been calling myself losers for like ..many times . but whatever. I think i am stupid. How ? I dont like this feeling and i always get it whenever i turned on the computer. Argh. Why is nobody awake in the family , where's my sisterrrrrrrrrrr. im scared ): No more horror movies, NO MOREEEEE.
tanshihying, when's "EAT-PRAY-LOVE" ):

2010-10-15T22:53:00.004+08:00

because i dont mean to be unreasonable and to feel this way , i will find stuffs to do to keep myself entertain and not to think of some crapshit. and i found facebook.

2010-10-15T22:24:00.003+08:00

So , how did i celebrate the first day of "exam-free" day ? Let's see......
such a loser -.- Bought many things today , "a walk to remember" , Receive a call from the "wah-piang" huzaifah guy and he asked me to meet them for breakfast. So yupyup , joined them after i packed my worksheets files textbooks workbook tys that were all stacked up on my table like a mountain . I missed two buses , how stupid is that , so i walked instead. Surprisingly, i saw jerome , aaronphua and enze, was kinda happy to see them. So long never catch up with phuazaiting and jerome already can! Met huz, aaron,glen @ yakun before heading to take the bus17 to pick some loser who just end his paper. Watched child's eye , imscaredddddddddddd. Throughout the whole movie , 3/4 of it , i was covering my eyes. Yeah , imhershey GIANT and KING size chocolate bar for my sister (i hope she gets fat & i hope she sees this (: ) , blue tackkkkkk and still got what else...i remember i bought alot of things. Ok , whatever. Dined @ longjohnsilvers then went to toy-r-us , the guys went crazy there but it feels happy to see the smile on their face. Its been a long time since i see those smiles , especially from leejianwei. but its kinda .... that i didnt get to go urban write. suckers. but whatever, i dont intend to get anything anyway , must start saving money now , planning to go universal studios with both my cousins and friends ( i hope denisehengzhenyi sees this and started going crazy planning with me for the trip) :D hehehe.
& i think im crazy to get angry over such little stuffs, im such a petty ~~loser~~ rocker.

FYI , I HATE MAPLE @#$%^%##%&^#@#$%^&

OHYEAH OHYEAH OHYEAH HEY!

2010-10-14T14:08:00.004+08:00

SO YUP YUP , EXAMS ARE OVERRR. but im kinda not excited to go out right now because im feeling super scared ): I dont wanna get back my results.....): I dont want to see the mark sheet and cry . Im serious. I didn't really work hard to for eoy , was kinda slack. I don't know if its me or the paper IS really difficult. Physics , chemistry , ..and the killer amaths paper 1....I don't want to fail man. Pray hard.

2010-10-08T17:59:00.001+08:00

6PAPERDOWN (:
ONE MORE WEEK LEFT.

i'm such a last minute person who has no sense of urgency , ohgosh.

2010-10-03T21:21:00.001+08:00

I GOT TO START STUDYING AND EXERCISING . GO VAL ! JUST 2MOREWEEKS !

2010-09-25T23:24:00.001+08:00

i think girls are complicated, or is it just me ? I think I'm weird and crazy and sometimes i don't even understand myself.

PRINCESS @ THE BEACH

2010-09-20T22:44:00.004+08:00

The day i've been awaiting has finally arrived ya ? I'm going to be fifteen tomorrow !!! That's like freaking fast la, ): or (: ? EOY's comingggggg ): ok, whatever. Im kinda excited for tomorrow (: Meeting jw in the morning then walk to school tgt ^^ All the secrets will then be revealed , i can't wait ya ! Anyway , my birthday celebration was on 18September2010. That day was...SUPER SUPER AWESOME \M/ So ..ONCE UPON A TIME....

Met jw at 10.45++ , im sorry ): didn't mean to be lateee > 12++ met the girls > jw left to tam for his grandmother birthday > trained to habourfront and lunch at Mac > Met the guys WITHOUT jianwei cause he's still enjoying his "meal" , what seafood platter roasted pigggg > Walked to siloso beach > Found a spot > Played .
Sandra suggested to camwhore , sooo....went to the toilet and started talking lots of pics with jingyu's cam cause sandra forget to bring her memory card , how cool is that huh > ruiyi joined us > jolina tzexin came in > SUDDENLY I WAS BLINDFOLDED BY THAT SUPER ROUGH WANXUAN THAT MADE MY HAIR SO MESSY LIKE SOME CRAZY GIRL . I was feeling scared ): Cause i didn't dare to walk with eyes closed but i didn't wanted to spoil plan yah , so yupyup , tzexin on my right , wanxuan on my left , jolina sandra both in front of me , together they brought me to the beach. Happy birthday song was sang and when the blindfold was taken out , i opened my eyes and saw 21 heart-shaped balloons stuck into the sand & that sweet boyfriend of mine sang a song for with a princess helium balloon on his hand and 1minute later , laris passed him this strawberry shortcake cake. I made a 3sec wish , hoping those 3wishes of mine would come true (: Yupyup , i was kinda .... happy (: Started tooking pictures , group photos , individual spastic photos. & i found out everything's was planned. That porkbear's grandmother birthday celebration was supposed to be on 19September. He went tam to meet laris to shop for stuffs. Awww, such a sweet boyfriend.

@ 6plus , my mcchicken face boy suggested to go on our own , so yupyup. He said he's bringing me to see someone , something..and guess what ! he brought me to sit the cablecar. Yah! Like super :D:D:D , i smiled like crazy happy like don't know what . I've never been on a cable car with my friends / boyfriend before. So , its was a .... memorable experience. Furthermore , its my 15th birthday celebration .

I had a great day that day. How can i ever thankyou huh baby , the birthday plan was awesome . Not to forget my other awesome friends who helped out in the celebration, like sandra for bluffing me into the toilet , wanxuan for blindfolding me , jolina tzexin and i believe the guys as well helped out in sticking the balloons into the sand......IN FACT , EVERYONE. yupyup , thank you EVERYONE for making my 15th birthday such a blast yah? Iloveyouguysalotalotalot.
Thankyou(:
& Happy birthday valval , 45minutes more (:
iloveyou,leejianwei♥
myprincecharming.

i promise to keep you forever , ♥ yupyup, forever.

very inferior

2010-09-12T20:07:00.005+08:00

capable of everything + capable of nothing , so please don't tell them.

(Y) lovethispic , : bear paws♥

sundays before school days are always boring )': Unlike last sunday , we shopped at parkway and had astons for dinner. However, today was kinda fruitful (: I did circles and studied 3% of physics eoy topics. AT LEAST I STUDIED RIGHT ): IM PLEASED ANYWAY :D school's tomorrow , oral's tomorrow , ): ohgosh . Of all exams , oral ): im afraid of oral. but i'm excited for laksa ONLY. i wanna catch steup3 !!!!!!!

9MOREDAYS♥

2010-09-11T23:02:00.010+08:00

this picture is for some bear who loves salmon (:

DIY ice kachang

i love this picture here♥ he's very cute right ? he's my neighbour (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY (: my daddy isn't old because he hasn't reach the age to get his cpf . He's like my hero ♥♥♥ , does this make sense ? Lol , (: HAPPYBRITHDAYDADDY.
celebrated his birthday at somewhere special today, instead of the usual sakura buffet (: the scenery there is beautiful ♥♥♥ ! Hope to go there one day again to take the sunset again !
is holidays next week or did it just past ): ?

2010-09-11T12:47:00.003+08:00

as i was crying terribly , you hugged me in your arms

2010-09-10T09:25:00.002+08:00

you're just right in front of my eyes but i couldn't talk to you....it hurts me ): just when i built up my courage , you're offline.

2010-09-08T11:43:00.002+08:00

physics chemistry amaths social studies literature emaths chinese english oral geography. can holidays drag till next next week ? )': crapshit.

2010-09-06T22:03:00.001+08:00

TAKE CARE BEAR♥

k-h-o-o♥

2010-09-05T21:45:00.007+08:00

ilovemysister♥

the falling of raindrops woke me up, it was freezinggggg cold. but i knew it's going to be a 's' for super sunday and not a 's' for sian sunday (: & yup , super sunday (: Its been a long time since there's a family day (: Headed to parkway parade after my tuition. Jiejie bought daddy clothes for birthday and a wallet for my birthday. She said my wallet is very very ugly -.- Ohkay....Ohyes, saw this adidas bag that caught my eye , winkwink ^^ . Went to Ikea next > walked aimlessly , spent like less than 30minutes there ? parkway > ikea > home sweet home > dinner @ Astons , T1 > bedok Today's a great day in fact (: Especially the dinner , i've never eat astons before. I know i sound damn suaku here but at least i've tried (: Better to be late than never , hmm, does this make sense anyway? Ok whatever, its yummy (: There's school tomorrow and mummy doesn't believe meeeeeeeeeee , i dont wanna go )': its suppose to be a holidayyyyy ): Argh.

epps

2010-08-31T16:11:00.002+08:00

sooo, met up with manyyyyyy ex-eliasians! It feels great to see so many familiar faces and they actually remember you? Elias park has also changed , drastic change , seriously. Its so ....different and nice now! I kinda miss primary school , awwwww )': lol. ok. Its just sad that i didn't bring my camera )': Argh ! This year is a successful one!
grown taller , break voice, slim down , fatter , as weird as usual , hotter , uglier , prettier...we all grown up. Its just fun to see how people looked like now, from small kids to grownup (:

2010-08-24T22:15:00.002+08:00

How do i start ? I felt like i almost died today. In fact , almost every cca day. For the sake of exercising , i thought. But i took it so seriously like hmmm, i've never really take things so seriously before, moreover , for such a minor thing. I'm not suitable for it i guess. Perhaps i feel inferior , i should be happy for you , proud of you , honoured....Yeah , valerie , please be more open minded can ? -.- ok! Let's just skip about studies. I quit doing everything today. Intend to complete amaths emaths physics but i quit them all. Sometimes , i feel pathetic of myself. Im not trying to "a.a" here , but i really feel that way at times. Today's a bad day i guess. At least there's some stuffs that keep me going , like "The Notebook" that shihying lend me (: Im so "into" it now ! Excited to complete reading it and buy "The Wedding" (: & class's fun with tracy ! Not to forget mrmcchickenboy & finny.

2010-08-17T20:24:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a happy day but not today. i got back some of my results and wasn't really happy for it. i've got hight expectations ya. ss test is this thurday and the marks for it is going to be include for my CA marks under geography -.- Thats the worst thing. My geog is like (Y) , adding the ss marks....i wouldn't get my A anymore. I've been feeling pretty stress lately but not appearing to be because its like...i don't and i can't study ?! That laziness of mine is pulling me back. And sometimes i don't get some people , their dubious personality. To some who think i might be refering to her but no , im not refering to her. Some other person ya? Its like....what are we treated as, Ya. I thought we were suppose to share everything either , but no. "its better to be said than done" but whatever said its just......crap i guess. So from now on , "not sharing things" should not be excuse. And its weird why are the students also the one at fault...Life's weird. However, i'm still glad there are other people out there for me (: hehe. ohyes, btw, to jingyu , if you're reading this, THANKS FOR THE PICTURE , THE STRAWBERRY THING THING , I LIKE IT ALOT (: HEHE , THANK YOU !!! & to the mcchickenfaceboy , no more repetition of what happen k , i♥you. last day of photography course this saturday )': , mcchicky , are you sad ? )': i ammmmmmm.

2010-08-12T17:37:00.003+08:00

For a moment, i asked if this was a dream. But no.

There’s nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but it's not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

ifckingsuck)':

2010-08-10T22:16:00.004+08:00

test tomorrow, i didn't study AT ALL. &&&& ! I forget everything about partial fractions , binomial , indices....Okay , well done val (: I don't really like school when there's test )': why is it that time always flyyyyy when it's a holiday? 4days of holidays. Im super reluctant for school tomorrow )': three continuous days , there's test. And im totally not prepared for physics's test tomorrow. But at least i enjoyed myself the past four days. Friday's celebration was kinda not high cause of some stupid stuffs but at least its settled 2 hours later and some mcchicken face boy even came for some bonding session . Saturday's photography lesson wassss slightly more interesting because we learnt panning & i finally had my yoshinoya after that (: yay! Sunday's photography morning outing was hahahahahahahahahaha. it was pretty cool that mcchicken face boy's car was in front of mine and we reached at the same time & we took milky waterfall that i've been wanting to take all this while. Thought there's sun spots in the picture but whatever ? & the highlights of the day : i said hi to his pretty mummy (: i like his mum ! Monday HAPPY 45TH SINGAPORE (: hehe. i went to some bear house and i presented the "prettiest house award for 2010" so far to him. Headed to promenade and had lunch+dinner @ popeyes. Watched the shortlive but super wow fireworks AT WHERE ? at the HIGHWAY. its was pretty cool actually because from where i'm standing , i can see practically everything? Yeah , awesome day (: Tuesday, which is today ! Send the nanhai students off , my buddy cried while hugging me ... That goodbye scene was kinda...sad? Met the stupid monkey WHO CALLED ME SI FEI ZHU (stupid fat pig) and we ran to see the torch .We look like paparazzi , seriosuly. Especially when we alighted from the car , running like some idiot to greenview sec. But well , thank you mcchicken face boy , you give in to me and even went crazy with me , running here and there in the pasir ris estate, ok fine not to exaggerate , run from : central-school-central-greenview-school. THANKYOU MCCHICKENFACEBOY. Though at times you pissed me off when you're being so wishy-washy BUTTTTTTT, thats because i didnt make myself clear but ok fine , whatever. Im starting to talk crap. That stupid fat pig also went to fillet-o-fish face house and did maths together and even had dinner with the Mc donald's family. Hmmm, i know you must be feeling damn scared huh ! Highlights of today : haziq talk to me onlineeeeeeee but i found out i couldn't go to zahwah's drama play. yeahh. we should meet up soon guys , im serious )': even though life's kinda packed , full of tests homework fats , but at least there is my awesome family which consists of my super daddy , retarded mummy , crazy sister ! & mr. mcchicken face boy , my clique, my good friends , and even primary school friends who bothered to keep in touch with me ♥ ! ILOVEMYSOCIALLIFE. ok , does it make sense? hehehehehe (:

goodnight everyone. it's going to be long day tmr )':

2010-08-06T16:40:00.003+08:00

hey mcchicken texture face boy, what are you doing behind me? some assyhole is at my house now , currently playing with my cousin's nerf gun (:

H for HAPPY DAY

2010-08-05T20:26:00.003+08:00

thank you for making me smile like an idiot on the phone , iloveyou♥ !
soooooo, after 2 and a half days, everything's alright now (: Mr sunshine has scared away my grey clouds and im superrrr duperrr happyyyy (: thank you to alllll my friends especially my clique people , ♥ & i hope sandra will solve her problems too ! School's slack today, stayed back to help out with the class deco , everything was in a rush and kinda.....simple. But at least we put in our effort (: chatted with evelle thennnnnnn off to see some assy cute boy do pds (:

TODAY IS A HAPPYDAY.
TOMORROW WILL BE A HYPER DAY. I CANT WAIT TO SINGGGGGGGG \M/ AND WEAR MY RED CUTE SHIRTTTTT WITH MY CUTE FRINGEEEEEEEEE (: but i have to stay back -.- , total crap , bye macdonald's harsh brown )':

ILOVETODAY , ILOVEVERYONE. IM VERY HAPPY. IM SMILING LIKE AN IDIOT NOW . HEEHEEE, WAITING FOR ASSHOLE TO CALL ME AND MAKE ME SMILE WIDER :D

2010-08-04T21:32:00.007+08:00

Dear diary,
I've been feeling very helpless , i don't know what should i do. I'm always the one causing problems , causing others to feel hurt. I thought of giving up. However i realise i have fallen too deep, I'm too dependent to let go and i relied too much. I can't afford to let go, i might be selfish but i cannot imagine life without.......
i thought i was the happiest girl .

2010-08-03T21:43:00.004+08:00

Hi. there's something wrong with my tagboard , i will put it up soon (: Students from NanHai experimental school are here for an exchange programme, so i've been pretty busy entertaining them lately!
Today isn't really a great day, is today the 3rd?

2010-07-18T21:44:00.006+08:00

(this, is not shihying) this , is me and cute jo (: my picture with shihying is with that assy of mine , btw : this pic is number 19 eh , wink to shihying :D

this , is then tanyingying (:

So yeah , celebrated shihying's 15th yesterday @ ecp. The plan failed but i believe she was a little happy cause of the dozens of balloons yujie blew for her. Rode bicycle with ljw, hehehehe , i completed something under the "excitement list" (: Photography course's next on the list to be completed ! & ohyes, i watched despicableme already , agnes is super cuteeeee you know ? (: i like her :D

Happy Advance Birthday Tan Shih Ying ♥ love you !

excitement

2010-07-11T20:23:00.003+08:00

Im excited to save money i want to buy jansport school bag as i got a feeling my school bag's going to break i want to buy adidas / nike jersey with number TWENTYONE or THREE ! Im excited to go to ecp and ride bicycle with jw Im excited for Nikon photography course on 21st July though i will be alone with all the adults in the classroom and me being the youngest and stupid-est i believe Im excited for Basic photography course on 24July with jw and we'll explore and try all the food at the place over there Im excited to watch despicable me 3D though i said i won't watch 3D after a disappointing experience watching toystorey 3D because there isn't really effects Im excited for a picnic trip + flying kite day Im excited for common tests to be over Im excited to score well and make my parents smileeeeeeee Im excited to show and prove it to them that "YES I CAN DO IT" Im excited for photography course because i wanna take pretty pictures and daddy will go "yeah , nice picture!" Im excited for my birthday though its two months away Im excited for national day and im able to wear red shirt because the 49Days are over Im excited for national day and i'll go and see the fireworks and snap it with my nikky dslr Im excited for day55 after 11July Im excited for christmas currently Im excited to eat subway Im excited for shihying's birthday and idk why Im excited to see the YOG athletics and snap them with my cool camera Im excited to welcome greenbean and pinkbean to the new bearmily Im excited to plan the next sushibuffet with jingyu though i didn't tell her i wanna get fat again Im excited to watch breakingdawn with sandralimjiayi and i make sure i bring scrotch tape to tape her mouth in case she scream again Im excited for school tomorrow because i wanna eat school food and play with ruiyi's healthy bottle with my clique Im excited for wednesday because its nuggetday Im excited for my hair to grow till as long as last year's Im excited for many things and if i continue typing things that im excited for , people reading this would be falling asleep(: though im super stressed out for studies and dislike some stuffs cause of some reasons, I still love my current life thank you to those who coloured my black and white world ♥
second reminder : i need to work hard !

from day asap

2010-07-05T22:02:00.004+08:00

watched eclipse with my girls today. I couldn't really catch what they say because jingyu and sandra were like totally distracting me !!! Worst still , one TeamEdward the other TeamJacob . But...the movie was still great? The ending was good (Y) Plus, the whole theatre was cool(: Everyone was...high? I had a s for sumptuous saturday and s for sad sunday. Lazy to elaborate. School's tomorrow, like so fast , super sian )': I hope it will be a t for terrific tuesday :D but! there's cca )': LOL. i seemed reluctant, ohyes i am .
I GOT TO WORK HARD STARTING FROM ..ASAP.

2010-06-27T21:58:00.003+08:00

school's tomorrow , excited yet not excited !
h-o-m-e-w-o-r-k -.- , they are incompleteeeeeeeee )': But i got a feeling that teachers will be like, " okay , i give you one more day " hehe , let's hope for that . Lit proj , chinese proj , both undone , not really prepared for school buttttttttt , i can't wait to crap with jerome and aaronphua in class (: , and i miss hiding ruiyi's bottle , wanxuan's wallet with my clique people (: hehehehehehe. OKAY , SOOOOO , I THINK I AM MORE TO THE "EXCITED FOR SCHOOL" SIDE ! &&&& IM EXCITED TO WEAR MY UNIFORM , hopefully it still fits me .
off to pack my pencil case and school bag ~

ilovemydslr♥

2010-06-24T22:20:00.001+08:00

Finally, tomorrow both my sister and jianwei are coming back from their camps. But at the same time , mummy and jiejie are leaving for their thailand trip. Like, one come back the other go , so weird. School's going to start , not really excited because my homework are still undone , lit project , chinese project...Well, at least i completed most of them already (: Holidays are short -.-
Went to watch IP MAN ; The legend is born with my mummy and daddy. Supposed to collect my camera today but ... as usual , 一场欢喜，一场空 )': totally disappointed .
currently doing physics , since im in the "doing-homework-mood" , i better carrying on doing. Heehee, BYEEEE.

hey asshole, do you know those 5 days were long ? -.-

333th post

2010-06-20T19:52:00.001+08:00

to this retarded assy huneystick here : I'm very sorry for not being able to go out tomorrow , sorry )':

Yesterday was crazyyyy! Buffet @ ahmah house , "celebrating" her birthday. There was no cake as we couldn't cut cake , we had brownies instead ! Know where we went after ten ? WE WENT KBOX. WHOLE KHOO FAMILY WENT. okay , not everyone went but most. We got the biggest room to fit twenty+ people & the aircon is sooooo freaking cold that i almost froze that ! Everything ended around 3am . Reached home @ 3.33am (around there). Surprisingly , my dearest bear isn't asleep. heehee. Today was not crazy but hehehehehehehehe , DADDY BROUGHT ME TO SEE CAMERA @ COURTS. Finally, i know i am going to buy a dslr (: Howeverr, we didn't buy it today . Most probably tomorrow / tuesday.

It's going to five ~~short~~ days , I'm down with heavy flu + cough. Welldone!
"val , you can do it righttttttttttt?"
"yes, i think i can. after f-i-v-e days , nikky & canny can make friends right?"
ilikenumber3,seeeee,so many 3 in my post.

HIBEAR.

2010-06-18T15:39:00.000+08:00

i found my motivation to do my holiday homework : My mother (: She didn't allow me to go out because i barely touched my homework. & so with my new found motivation, I finally complete all my maths homework , except for those that i have doubts with (: Going to stay home tomorrow as well , homework day. 17June : homework > pasir ris park > ToyStorey3D hmm, its a waste of money to catch the 3D show , cause .. its not even like 3D compared to the one in states. > tamp > collect corby > dinner @ fish&co > home.

Daddy's coming back later , going to ask him to get my best friend soon , hopefull by this weekend. Yay! There are soooooo super many things i wanna do , but.....i need to find time !

S90+SEXYSONY

2010-06-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

homework still undone , have not touched it since 12June. Well done val (:

Yesterday : netball trainingggggg (: > bathed@home > spookychalet > home sweet home. my leg was damn pain , too long never train already!

15JUNEEEEEEE HAPPY HUNEYSTICKEY DAY TEOJINGYU ! Had fun today (: Catch up alot with jingyu! Took manyyyy pictures, shall upload pictures on fb later (: (: Lunched @ JustAcia, "freeflow of drinks & icecream" , yeah we really did make our $$$ worth huh. heehee. Planning for our next shopping outing , winkkkkkkkk ♥ by then , corby will be repair-ed.

Overall :

tamp with mummy shopped+walked alot > repair corby > home > met jingyu @ ehub > JustAcia > s90 & sexysony made friends > ntuc > home > webcam HAPPY10MONTHSHUNEY♥

here's some pictures :

ILOVEAPPLES.

credits : JIANWEI'S CAMERA & VALERIE'S (Y) SKILLS

he claims to be cute when he's not (:

btw, jianwei got a new friend , CANON550D. He stole my best friend )':

2010-06-12T21:49:00.000+08:00

I finally started my homework today. I managed to do 1/10 of it . 16 more days till sch reopen , i better complete my things to do asappppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp !!!! & i better stop treating fastfood as my bestfriend. Ohyes, i'm kinda excited for netball training , idk why (:

i wonder when am i getting my dslr )':

hello,canon550D.

boooollllllllshit.

2010-06-11T20:46:00.000+08:00

everything's crapshit bullshit. i haven touch my mountain homeworkkkkkkkkk )': everyone started doing except for me . This is crap. I need motivationnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn but i kept feeling lazy )':
this is my happy holiday : i missed both camps / woke up early in morning for two weeks / not even one single day of dayout with jingyu wanxuan sandra shihying jolina ruiyi okay , basically my clique people / not even one full day outing with jianwei/ corby's spoilt / not even one single of homework done / didn't even catch 1 movie / i can't remember what i say , im very forgetful / & this suckssss to the maxxxxxxxxx

everysucknowyouknow,plainlysuckmuch.
lagging in fb for 3days , so dont contact me in fb.

2010-06-10T09:00:00.000+08:00

30MORE HOURS !

And i realised something , how can i go to nyaa camp next year ? I will be sec4 , i will be missing my structured programmes. total crapppppppppppp. Some assholes are having fun now. crapmeat. crapthem. Let's talking about something happy (: Im kinda excited to get my dslr. Wait, i don't even know if im getting it soon. I hinted my dad today but "ohhhh" was his reply. Hmm, & what does that mean ? Anyway , half of my day was spent at ahmah house with my whole family. planning to go to malaysia next year , family outing because we can't celebrate chinese new year. very very excited , (Y) \M/ perhaps i can get to use my ....dslr , hopefully? (:

Ohyah! I can't go out tomorrow, need to pray again . Mummy just reminded me ):

Like what on earth happen to my supposed-to-be-very-fun-exciting-june-holidays. I missed both camps. I haven touch my homework. I am super fat now. Back to square one mood. Well done.